Aghhhh!!!!!!!!!

Help! I. Need. Help! Agghhhh!!!! I am at the end of my rope right now... barely hanging on... I need to get a grip before I start freaking out here. I don't know what to do!!!

Baylee has always been the difficult one... since before I even knew I was pregnant!! I thought it was a horrible bout of stomach flu... ahh nope! That was Miss Baylee Rose making her presence known. Looking at food, smelling food, moving from my ever so still spot on the couch, feeding the other two kids, breathing, you get the picture. EVERYTHING made me sick with her for a month after I knew I was pregnant. Everything. She was a difficult pregnancy all around. Had problems I had never encountered before, bleeding, emergency hospital trips, car accident, you name it, it happened while I was pregnant with Baylee Rose. Won't even go there about delivery!!

So I should expect her to continue her difficulty, right? Hoped not! She was a difficult baby... colic, reflux, horrible teether. And now... she is a difficult toddler. OMG! Her latest thing is poop. Oh how she loves to reach in her diaper and play in poop. Disgusting. Makes me want to puke. I have tried talking to her, tried showing her where her poop goes (also an attempt at potty training as she just turned 2), tried punishing her when she does it. NOTHING works.

I want to rip my hair out. TWICE today... it has happened twice today so far! I put her to bed for a nap and realized 30 minutes later I could hear her playing. Go upstairs, there is poop in her carpet, her bed, her hands, under her fingernails. Ugh. I hate the smell of poop. Not like its runny poop either.

Never have I encountered such a stubborn, strong-willed, and difficult child. She is great, funny, loving and silly. She's gonna be a spit-fire thats for sure. For now... I need help. I admit defeat to the poop. HELP. How do I get her to stop???